Beyond the Ground

“You found the earth beneath where I was drowned.”  – Zack Gray

That lyric in the song Beyond the Ground written by Blake Wisner and Zack Gray made me think again about watching an acorn transform into an oak tree. When I say it’s spiritual it. I mean it. And I’ve been able to correlate many life lessons from it. For a seed to take root, it must be planted or submerged in water before the tree emerges into the light. In fact, to find a healthy acorn, you do a float test in water. If it sinks, it’s a good acorn, if it floats it’s bad. This submersion, essentially drowned, is ironically what the tap root seeks in the first place, but will soon use the earth to take root.

Rachel Pollack says, “We tend to misunderstand the color black, seeing it as evil, or negation of life. Rather, black means all things being possible, infinite energy of life before consciousness has constructed any boundaries. When we fear blackness or darkness we fear the deep unconscious source of life itself.” 

If an infinity of forests lies dormant with the dreams of one acorn, and infinite energy of life comes before consciousness, your potential is also limitless in consciousness. In the beginning, it was dark, but God said let there be light. And here we are. You are reading this now but was once in the darkness of a womb before seeing the light. 

So the life lesson is this: If life seems overwhelming to you right now, if you feel buried, remember that the dark place you feel right now can be changed by shifting your thoughts to believe this can be the beginning of the root. The reframing in your mind that this darkness or drowning you feel, grasping for security, this can be the perfect ground to begin the growth from the lowest of lows. 

When we are honest in these moments, our vulnerability changes our position to reach up and out. Our extended hand like a tree to the sky. There is nothing new under the sun, you know, that big ball of light? When we feel comfortable to share our stories with the world, how we made it through, that realization helps someone say, I relate to you, “You found the earth beneath where I was drowned.” Your story helped me take root and I now feel like I’m growing in this. I’m better, realizing I am not alone. 

So that’s what came to me hearing that lyric. We grow in both darkness and light. We just need to remember that even in the darkest times of our lives, it is temporary, and the good news is we will soon see the light if we choose to take root.

Eating You Alive

“I pray you heal from things no one ever apologized for.” - Nakeia Homer 

What’s eating you alive inside? Unforgiveness? Holding a grudge? Bitterness? Self-doubt? Jealousy? Bouts of depression? We all struggle with something no one sees or may quite understand. 

In Fall 2019, one of the acorns I picked up with the hope to watch it begin the journey to become mighty oaks never happened. I decided to look at it closer, picked it up, and noticed it felt lighter and dryer. My intuition told me to keep it around. I placed it on the counter to discover a hole in it and grub on the counter. A good way to find a healthy acorn is to conduct a float test (blog post on the float test coming soon).

What appeared to be a healthy acorn to the naked eye on the outside was on the inside, literally dying, being eaten from within, something I could not see. 

A couple of things jump out to me. We never know what someone is struggling with or fighting inside. They may appear okay on the outside. But plenty of people know how to wear a smile to mask the pain. 

We’re never alone. Someone shares your struggle. We’ve all been through pain and carry deep wounds or scars. This all has reminded me to be open and honest, and remember continue to reach out to those I trust. Looking at the hole in the acorn was a humbling reminder that things not dealt with will eventually hinder growth. And some things not dealt with will lead to no growth at all. It’s often unresolved issues as the reason why people hurt us or continue to hurt us. Or why we hurt other people. 

Our growth is a symbol of the fight. Trees withstand life’s seasons. From learning to let go, to the cold grey days, to the windy storms, to soaking up the sun, the growth takes time, but with persistence, they stand tall. We can too. 

So this is a reminder to heal from within. Seek someone who understands. Don’t be afraid to admit you’re struggling or need a listening ear or be a listening ear. Let’s not forget God is also right there to hear our prayers and heal our hearts.